Stuck in the coil,

It repeats, it decays.

Stars foretold in gloom.

Nights of frost; 

Worthless thoughts.

Stagnant. Eternal.

Eroded dreams

Linger in agony.

Wish them away 

In silent screams.

Unyielding sorrow,

Guilt-branded joy,

Turn music to noise, 

Art into a wound

Bleed out desires. Drink wicked ire.

Recall the past.

–The worthless flutter–

Remember each word,

Find every mistake;

Naught for answers.

Try the old, fail anew.

Seek to change, drown again.

–Unfathomable malice–

It won’t shatter. It won’t change.

A bleak fantasy pulls me,

And I sink.

–Beneath the lethargy–

Bliss is bound to fade;

Despair forever to remain.

By echoes buried,

Crumble to the infinite deep.

“Hang in there!”

–Forlorn and hollow–

“Hold a bit longer”.

–Stranded in memories–

“Don’t lose hope”.

–You’ll need it for the fall–

Happiness is my bane:

Bait for the next day.

Inflicting fiction.

–Promises never to be–

There is no resolution,

just death postponed. 

–Wake up to a worse tomorrow–

I can’t escape.

Today, as before,

As hereafter,

For time untold,

I am stuck...

Caught in a loop.